This morning when I woke up it crossed my mind that I haven't dreamt about Dominic as an adult since he passed away. I have only had a few dreams about him when he was young and I normally remember my dreams. Recently I have had quite a few sad dreams where someone has mentioned Dominic and asked how he was and I had to tell them he had passed away. In these dreams I ended up going to pieces after revealing that my darling boy had gone.  This morning I realised why I probably hadn't had any dreams about Dominic. Maybe it's because my mind is protecting me because if I had a dream he was here and with me I would wake up to the realisation that he had gone and it would be like losing him all over again.  I don't think I could survive through that sheer grief and devastation a second time.