Happy Valentines Day Darling Boy ❤ Today I took you some roses. Your Auntie Lynn took you a rose and, like she's done every year since you reached your teens, she also took you a Valentines card. This year it didnt have a '?' .She signed it. This year you weren't here to open it and look at it with confusion. It wasnt your Birthday or Christmas so why did you have a card? You liked looking at them though. This year you didn't come back from Oakmere, where you went 4 days a week, with a handmade card or gift for me. This year you weren't here.😢 I love you so very much Dominic. I always did and I always will. I ache to cuddle you, kiss your cheek, twiddle with one of your curls, hold your hand and hear your voice, see you smile, smell your aftershave, hear the whirr of your wheelchair, hear you giggle when I tickle you.....I just ache for you. If only Heaven had visiting hours.❤ 😭

I've seen alot of quotes all over Facebook relating to losing a child, at whatever age, since Dominic passed away. (I find it hard to say died. I dont know why but 'passed away', 'left us' , 'lost his battle' and so on seem a lot less devastating than died. When I think that Dominic has died it takes my breath away.... literally) Today another Mum of a Duchenne Boy who had recently passed away posted an image with a quote that said it all which I'm sharing here. Another quote I've seen on the internet that really is 100% accurate is:- 'Losing an adult child feels like having entire chapters of your life torn out and shredded'. That one sums up the way I've been feeling lately. As I said to my friend today, I find it hard to just have the memories now when I've spent the last 25 years making them. I'm not ready to live off my memory bank - shred the pages. I want to make more memories with him - more chapters. It's like be...