Today is the 22nd December and Christmas is now fast approaching. This year I made a conscious effort to go to town with the Christmas decorations in honour of Dominic.... because he loved it so. He loved the build up,the decorations,the carols and Christmas songs, the lights and looking around shops or places that were decked out for the festive season. His bedroom was also decorated like Santa's grotto. It took me hours to do but the look on his face when he entered to see it all was pure wonder and joy. Last year all I could feel was overwhelming grief and no Christmas spirit. I just wanted to get through the season. This year I wanted to feel he was a part of it.... of us. It worked but the nearer we get to Christmas Day the more I'm feeling the loss and grief again. Christmas day was family together, all day in the house, mostly in the lounge so there is a huge wheelchair shaped gap that he should be filling. Today I took my floral bits to the Dominic at the crematori...