I haven't updated for a long time this time.  I've been struggling a lot since Christmas really. I thought I was going to be carted off a few times in January and February and my second eldest has really struggled too. Now the sun has been out more, the flowers have started to appear and the birds are back and singing again. Dominic would have started going in the garden on warmer days and I would have been sitting out there with him cross stitching, doing a Puzzler or playing games on my phone. He would have been making his normal happy noises and I would have been reaching out to hold his hand occasionally or getting up to kiss his cheek or give him a drink. Someone asked not long ago if I've thought about going to a psychic. I know a lot of people who have when they have lost someone special to them, including a son or daughter. This isn't the first time it's been mentioned to me and I have thought about it. But Dominic couldn't communicate well. What woul...