Moving on....with Dominic

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I can't believe it's been just over a year since I last updated this blog.

Life gets in the way. 

It's tough enough without Dominic so any little bump in the road is harder to deal with and there have been many bumps. 

Anyway.. We have just passed the 6 year anniversary of the day my beautiful son passed away. It was tough as always. 

On his birthday, which was 5 days before the anniversary, we went on a barge in memory of Dominic who loved going on trains, trams,boats etc.

The main change in our lives is happening next Thursday. After living in this house for 13 years we are moving to a village 15 minutes away from St Alban's.

This house has become too big for us and too empty. To me it just doesn't feel so much like a home anymore since Dominic passed away and Vanessa and Emily no longer live here.

I would never have touched Dom's bedroom if we stayed. It was still the same as the last time he was in it. Now it's packed up. It was hard to do and I don't know how I kept it together on the whole but I did. I've kept a fair amount of stuff and I've bought a second hand glass cabinet to display some of his and my favourite memories. I've kept some clothes and all of his birthday, christening, new baby and Christmas cards. I will probably never look at them but I can't get rid of them. They are sacred.I've also still got some of his baby clothes. ♥️

So....Jamie,me and Ben are moving to a slower, quieter more rural pace of life. We have a farmers field behind us and we are on a cul de sac. I still intend to travel to St Alban's to work. I am a Cat Butler and love my furry clients so I'm hoping it is still viable financially.

I don't expect to be full of Joie de Vivre in our new home but I think it will be a positive move. I think it's the best place to find some peace.

I quite often bump into the guys who did Dom's funeral at the crematorium and have a chat and a hug. I had a chat with one of them about moving saying I had mixed emotions about leaving this home as it's where Dominic last lived. He said that wherever I go I'm taking Dominic with me and he's right. I am ♥️💔


Dominic in his happy place. The garden 🥰

Comments

  1. Anonymous5 September 2025 at 05:51

    He will always be with you 😍😍

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  2. Anonymous6 September 2025 at 22:59

    You are doing wonderfully well, i hope you find some peace in the new place, allow yourself to find it Kaye and remember Dom would want u to find it too xx

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